“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound”
After I read this verse, I right away looked up the definition of the word anoint. I mean, I know the meaning, but I wanted a more tangible, written out meaning than what was floating around in my head. To consecrate or make sacred, to dedicate to the service of God. This lead me to 1 John 2:27, “As for you, the anointing you received from him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit – just as it has taught you, remain in him.” This really stuck with me. I’ve been kind of wrestling around with my purpose lately, knowing that it’s more than just being a mother and a wife, even though those things are huge and amazing. I know there is more. I recently stepped down as a contributing writer for the mom blog I’ve been working for, and suddenly felt like I no longer had a platform. Like I wouldn’t be heard. Even though it was definitely the right decision for me and my sanity at this time, the wheels started turning. Do I need to become part of a ministry with a name and cute logo? Do I need to expand my business, start taking on more clients? Am I really putting out my full potential as a person and vessel for the Lord? The fact that I get to stay home with my daughter is still unreal to me. My prayer is that there is never a day that passes that I am not thankful for the blessing it is (even on the days that she poops all over her carseat and I haven’t eaten yet and it’s 4 o’clock and I’m completely overwhelmed). I find purpose in shepherding her little heart and life well. In loving and serving my husband as the church loves and serves Jesus. But I know for a fact that it pleases the Lord to see me serve him outside of my home and my family, I was just struggling to grab hold of what that looks like in mama world (although I’m fairly certain I grappled with this in college student world, recent graduate world, newlywed world, etc). And in reading this verse, I could hear the still but clear voice of the Lord reminding me of why I’m here.
To bring the good news to the poor. To bind up the brokenhearted and proclaim liberty to the captives. To open the prisons of those who are bound. I have been dedicated to the service of these things. My heart leapt at the thought. I deeply love those things. Walking through life with others is one of my greatest joys, and if I choose to look at my life through God’s lens, I am in the perfect season for doing so. Yes, being a stay at home mom gets purely crazy pants sometimes. But if I’m responsible with my time and in my relationships with others, I am more than capable of serving the things the words Isaiah 61 have called me to. As a stay at home mom. Even with out a title or a covering or an organization. How beautiful is that?! I get all geeked out at the thought.
So if right now that looks like coffee dates and just-checking-in emails and being intentional with the people the Lord puts in my path, than I will be dedicated and consecrated to the service of those things. If it looks like sharing the thoughts and lessons I feel the Father has me sharing here, this little corner of the internet will be dedicated and consecrated to such things. I’m so thankful for His faithfulness to show me where He has me in each moment. It’s my prayer is that You see evidence of Him in each day.